Was unable to think that I'll also be LLL @2015

Pagaliau galiu leisti sau ir išeiti iš darbo. Daugiau man dirbti nebereikia ir nebereikės. O pavidolei tjp ir sudegs ish pavido. pavidas jus tjp ir suvalgis.
Pasiruošęs ir nusiteikęs keliauti.
Myliu tą jausmą kai esi kitur, nužiūri kiekvieną žmogų, jų veidus, rūbus, klausaisi kiekvieno jų balso ir žodžių, viskas skamba kitaip. Kiekvienas kvapas kitoks, artimas ir tolimas pačiam man.
Eime.

Kodėl žmonės švenčia Lapkr. pirmąją Lietuvoje ? xD

"nu gi helovinas nusipieseu skeleta meikuppu ir i kluba tusinau iki triju nakties haha jolo helovinas mirusiuju djena as amerikonas"




O šiaip, džiugu būti pasiruošus, pilnai pasiruošus išvykti, ką reikėjo padariau, sustačiau viską į vietas. Visų savo pragariškų kelių metų brudą išvaliau, kapitalas - check, nuotaika - check, papūgos - check, katitė - check.


Nežinau kodėl, nes neturėtų taip būti, bet skaudu matyti tuos, kurie kaip buvo, taip ir likę kažkur padugnėje... Juk laikas bėga, o daugelis taip ir stovi vietoje, bando plaukti pasroviui.

Kvailiausia yra bandyti parodyti kitiems, jog tu esi laimingas, ir , ak , kaip viskas tavo gyvenime yra nuostabu, tada, kai iš tiesų taip nėra. Skaudu ne dėl to, kad tai paprasčiausia apgaulė, skaudžiausia, kad tai apgaulė, pirmoje vietoje, savęs.

This dude should be the owner of DELFI.lt

Wink wink.


He's demure, could be a little bit of  haughty for her he's impeccable and it all makes him jubilant.  Wink wink.

It's all on you. Make a difference.

If you want to be treated well - you better not fuck up and do your very damn best.

They shout when they're good, scream when they're super good. We stay quiet. Not for you, not for them. For me and you. It's true that sharing your wellness Isn't all about you. It's all about them, you are showing the bright side only while you're still in a shadow yourself, you're trying to make things better like that. That's not going to work, fix it.


Weird how I managed to say "we have more places to be and visit than there's time for us to live here"

I'm loving it.

M stands for McDonalds and Majin.

Optimizationable chaptericalingious supulturritiscicalism.

Soulmates will never die. Always remember not to have a person with you just because. It could be and probably will be a darn mistake, just don't waste your time. Find an equal one, at least in the matter of IQ.
The best atm is not to remember or have anything from the very past. I've build my today, I have a new past and I'm proud. Probably I'm not as proud as everyone else is about their stuff, because I'm not pasting it through places or screaming out loud. I just don't need it. It's for me, for us, not for them. I'm having my everyday things, kisses, games, talks, sex, future. Probably the funniest thing is that, still, there are (sure thing - always will be) discgraceful ones, cheap people who will try to drag me down into their dirt from what I'm having, too bad - that ain't gonna happen because of me being allergic to bullshit.

I love life in general. In general - all is good, but the rest depends on you yourself.
I love my tiny mornings, when you hug me naked, kiss my lips. Love knowing you're happy.
Love our singing parrot, only our stuff that no one will ever see or know. I don't feel a personal need to run and screem of how I love all this. I just have it inside, for myself only.
Love learning what Wo ai ni is.
Every day is a step further, no matter how good it is already, stopping isn't an idea. Go.

Same people, day after day, year after year, not having anything, but still talking the loudest. Quoting a quote doesn't make you look smart and doesn't change you or your life. Stop it. Shut up. Leave and don't show up. The real ones, chasing their dreams are too busy doing that, not posting it. Realize, wake up. If I was a vegan, I would shut my dirty mouth up not telling anyone I'm vegan because of the quote of how to recognize a vegan ? he's gonna tell you himself. The thing is, don't like... vegans know this qoute or something ? Shut the fuck up, looser.

Shed a tear

I love you all. You and our parrot.

Don't go and lose your face

Sometimes it takes a bit more. To be happy. And to make the other happy. Sometimes that more is more then you think more is. Beyond your more.
Awake your highlights by having your future set. Have a goal and go, the rest will do itself.
I've never felt being truly loved.

We will miss you, Swagrid, miss you with all tears. Dream collapses slowly and the fading begins.

This life isn't worth for you to forget where the sky is !

I think It's much beter to tell the truth that hurts rather then lies that calm you down but kills you in the end.

At one point being a bit over paranoic is a good thing. The bad part is that you're nervous as hell, can't deal with your daily duties and jobs, it can easily affect your health and etc., but the good thing is that at least you care. You kinda over care.


I want it all to be bright, with no shadows around it.

Woke up at three today or more like tonight. Prob because I went to sleep at eight, that's some new shit. Please, Lee, feel well today. Mostly, when a person feels bitchy and fucked up, It automatically affects his routine, behavior and all the stuff.  For me It's the same but x666, so must take care and hope for the best, sick and tired of being sick and tired.


Let's build our life baby. Together, just me and you. And lots of chocolate, okay ?

I always wanted to have this with her :

Back from work - money here, together. Doing all we can, going thru this life together, faster and more effective, more fun and enthusiastic, enjoying days and nights, never letting go.

Placebo Leni still makes me shiver, at least through earphones full sounded. 

Sometimes You don't even have to do anything to do stuff. #reality. Don't, just don't forget that nothing's gonna "just" come to you. I am healing. I'm almost good to go now, to fly up where I must be and I belong.


I hate Lithuania and Lithuanians. All of them, soso deeply. I remember playing counter strike when I was about 13 y.o. I had to play either versus Top Lithuanian teams or teams from abroad. Sometimes we didn't even know what's the nationality of enemies, but for me It wasn't that hard to recognize. If enemy calls you a piece of shit, a fat bitch, tells you that he fucked your mom twice today - that guy is Lithuanian and you can insta answer him in his own language. Or even easier way for me was to look at their nicknames. Lithuanian team is gonna be "Peni$", "Eat shit" , "Your mom is dead" or etc. Good old times.
Mostly people here don't know what's out "there".. what is abroad and where it is, how is the living there. I loved my friends story about him living in Denmark. Where people care..... Care.... Forgot the meaning of this word living here. I wanna be in a place where government wants me, cares about me. I can't get it here.
Also, tried to remember how many times have I seen a person collecting a dogs poop here. Counted max 3 in my lifetime. I think It has been three times because I can remember two only but I just think should be at least one more. And whenever I take a look outside, doesn't matter what's the time, you can see about  4 dogs just twatting around. I don't like it, though you may assume that It's just a small thing but then I would shove up your ass with aprox. 846 more small things to make a fucking difference.
All my life I was trying to become indefuckingpendent and there I am now, having stable money, having my own flat and everything I need just because I fucking achieved it by doing my best. Country want's to take fuck loads of people like my to join the army for 9 months. Want be tbh ? I would kill myself. Literally. Rather then joining that PILE OF SHIT. What should I fight for ? For this piece of fucking crap ? Never in my life, It's not worth It. Also, the funny shit is that I would be instant bankrupt after this governments joke. Who would pay for my flat and pay the banks ? Who ? How would I get money ? Who would help me ? No one and nobody. Nobody gives a shit about you here. You are a shit, go die, whatever, nobody cares here. I'm spending 1000 EUR per month and we still live I would assume kind of poor, we can't do the things I would love us to do, just because of this lack. I will try and I'm trying to change it already.


We all have our open book, so let's not close it before It's done, okay ? Hold on to me, I'll hold on to you. Don't let my heart go and we'll go fucking far.
You can change your last name, change the way you look, you'll never change the marks that still remain. Never ask forgiveness, It has been done, new page is about to be opened.
Do You remember the last day of 2014 and the very first days of 2015 being on Facebook ? Have you seen ~15 friends of your fat ass promising everyone and itself that Everything in It's life is gonna change and it's gonna do shit loads of more stuff, they all had and showed tons of their own promising lists. Go and ask them idiots what has been done ? What's the fucked up percentage of them all who actually did something they told "us" all ? Just saying!

I'm that kind of person who mostly knows or at least does everything to know what's gonna be tomorrow, after month, this year, the next year and etc... Where am I gonna go and see tomorrow? What am I gonna tell him? What's then ? What bus am I gonna take to get back home? Will I go to the store right after that or firstly should I get my ass home? Where to have a cigarette then? in the balcony or on my way to the store ?
EVERYTHING. This is how you plan stuff. Planning is the secret of success. Let's do like this. You go and start a new business right now, just do it all. And I will stay like this and I will fucking think of every detail how the fuck my business is gonna be. And after one year your poor piece of turded fuck will fuck up and then my business will start growing. Think different or you will not fail, you will not cry, you will die. Either just inside or literally.

I love writing here, though mostly it makes no sense, f.e. this post may look and probably looks like one big pile of shit, but tbh, I absofuckinglutely don't give any fucks at this particular fucking point, because why should I ? Random thoughts that I don't want to have in my mind alone. Maybe, maybe somewhere someone will find something inspiring here, I don't care, that's now my point anyway. Sometimes by writing down this shit I get that weird exciting feeling inside, makes me stand and get my fat buns up and actually do stuff. Soon.

Good old evenings and remarkable moments. Shhh, let it all go and be serious.

I thought I was sure who should I take as a part of my life but some situations confuses the shit out of me. Maybe I would be happier on my own just like I was? I'm scared of these thoughts because I fucking know how fucking strong I am at these things. I can only hear "fuck you" or "Shut the fuck up" once. Because if you don't want to see and hear me again in your poor life, just tell me to fuck my ass up. If you didn't believe in magic until this point, shit is about to change because I can disappear for fucking ever like nobody else. And then - never again. And no regrets, never ever.

There is only one type of maths in my life : If you wanna go and live to New York, you must have 30k USD (If you're a serious person enough). To get 30k you must either work like a crazy bitch for long years or have an incredible job or your own business. To have all that you must be incredibly strong person, learn every day, be different with your ideas and style, it all starts with learning. If you wanna have your company or a good workplace you must either find a shitty job for max 300EUR per month (welcome to Lithuania, that's our food for one week) or try to risk it all and go for your business. To start your business you must have a business plan, to write it down you must have shit loads of ideas and a fucking paper with a pen, to have that you must go to the store to buy it, too bad the stores are closed now so just go to fucking sleep.
Life is hard and I'm pretty sure more than a half off all these idiots don't know it HOPEFULLY just not yet. You're not gonna die a damn virgin, life's gonna fuck all of us.

Girls think It's a good thing for them only, to wake up in the morning and hear her boyfriend telling her "Surprise!, I'm gonna take you by the sea today, I have your things packed so let's go!". I want it too. I wanna be treated like that because I secretly think I deserve it. #WeirdThoughts
I want to have a person who talks to me. Shares her thoughts with me at any situation, weather, mood. Always behind, not literally, but holding my hand. Who cares. Who doesn't only tell me she cares but simply damn proves it. I think I want to much from life, but yeah...

Am... looks like I've left this shit again....
uuummm....
God.., God...
Love You loads!
Don't worry about him!
And, ummm.
Biggest biggest kisses...
And biggest biggest hugs...

 How old are you? Do YOU know where are you gonna be in a year ? in ten years ? in a week ? Where ? How are you gonna look, who's gonna be with you ? Do you know? Are you sure? ARE YOU SURE?! Look around you, look upon the Internet, look outside, communicate. So many fools, yes? Don't be one of them. But shhhh, don't be one of them but at the same time don't tell them a thing and don't show it off. They're gonna think you're as dumb as they are and then you can just secretly outscore and beat them in anything. And I am beating and I've beaten everyone I know. But I made a mistake pointing some things out and promising that I'm gonna do it, do better then you, they all. Stay tall and strong. If you're about to fall, don't look for a cover. Stand the fuck up, stand your ground and don't give your fat ass up, because nobody can beat and hurt you. It's also easier if someone is with you. It can help, maybe not even literally being with you, by It's existence. The tragedy of life is living to live better. It's not that bad as long as It doesn't take too, way too long. Wanna live in your dream ? What dream? How does it look like ? Take a fucking pen or fucking buy it, your fuckup and write it down, what must you do to achieve it all, huh ? Now stop that fucking writing, you stupid fuck and get your fucking super fat ass up the fucking chair or whatever and GO, DO IT. That's how things are done in life. Dummies stop at the writing part, or mostly - they don't even buy the pen. But remember - Shh. Life is like a game, but you have no respawns, you have one damn chance and you are in the middle of it right now, and what have you achieved ? Or don't tell me It's all just waiting in the future? Lies.

Stand Your ground.

Making other happy. Dying yourself deep inside. Can You even make me happy ? You can't always live with a thought "It's gonna be better", why not now ?

May be able to think I hate everyone or everything. I Summed all the shit up and managed to know myself well enough to know that all I hate is idiots. An idiot : inside, outside, his behavior, speech, moves, smell, looks, ideas, everyday, history, future plans and if you pay enough details also facebook page, friends. I saw a picture of a guy buying ~50 roses for his gf (knows her for about 2 weeks, the most common specie of an idiot) on a Valentines. Made me feel weird. Year after year I tried to know myself to know what is this feeling I get when I see stuff like that. Am I jealous? Mad ? Sad ? What is it ? It's not being jealous at all but I still can't describe it properly. Why do I get this feeling ? First of all, talking about this particular situation, what day is it today ? 17th. That dude unfriended her on FB and has no more "same stuff"with her. Easy to think of what happened. Secondly, I know how much does all that shit, I mean flowers cost. He had to spent about 100 EUR forfuckingsure. Where from ? I know him well enough to know he has no money, no job and never had, nothing. All he does is just drinking outside everyday buttt, here comes his mommy. It's his moms cash he buys shitloads of flowers and beers everyday. Posting it on facebook to try to look cool and sure he is popular. Jealous ? Not at all. That's not him. He is a damn abandoned shadow just floating around like a steam. Pure nothing. Think about yourself, yes, you. What would you do if all of your family members, friends, gf/bf would simply die, right fucking now leaving you a place, simple flat to live at and cash to live through ~two months. What would YOU do ? How would it all look ? Are you a person and human enough yourself ? How would it feel to be alone ? Could you live ? I think the reason of me hating them idiots like the guy I described is that I had to live even worse since I was a lil twatty kid, without absolutely nothing just myself. And I managed not even telling what I had to go through to get to the point where I am now. I hate winters. So good that this winter is kind of a brake from shit and just life in general, the best relaxation I've ever had, so feeling sugoi enough atm. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wrUgmJQ-cms And I don't get it why does my post looks good now, like I want it to be seen and when I publish It, it looks like one big pile of shit ? Well whatever I guess, someday I'm gonna have to re-do, re-style it somehow. Not the main issue atm anyway ! The world is full of idiots, somebody has to point it out to them or they will never know. And mostly you can't fix idiots but you can unsubscribe from their updates. And stop, stop telling people "How dumb can you be?" because mostly they take it as a challenge.

I wanna be with them who wants to and makes me happy.

I should have more than I have now. Pathetic.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lwPkBAv06Dg https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-216t4gIXDY Full sound is on here again, 6 also stays with me by my side. Sometimes I feel incredibly hyped and as if I could do any damn thing in the Universe but then I get back to reality and there's not that much of a stuff to do waiting for me. In a must change list this should be on a top. Gonna work on it.

We can buiiilddd a newww tomorrrooowww

Expectations may help you grow towards becoming someone better and they may help you pursue your dreams they also may be the catalyst of your happiness. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-216t4gIXDY https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dAUuEu-Fdyg 6 in the morning when she's sleeping. Sometimes being alone is a must, even just for a while. Your brain must unfreeze and take a deep breath for you to deal with life easier. Been a while since I was here, probably because I'm simply happy. And I can see bright lights already. I can see it rushing through my shadows, dripping on my knees, melting me from the inside while whispering me I love You. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lwPkBAv06Dg We will rumble into life together, crush all marble walls leaving shit behind, holding hands forever learning everyday. How can You fucking dare tell me you can't fly when You didn't even try learning?? My eyes are whiter, so are my lungs and probably so is my soul. I have dimples now. My temptations now have me and I have them too. She fits me like a pot fits a plate. And trust me, it fits.... quite well... Whoever has a temptation to take it out shall fail and stand against me in a first place. Because I'm our strong shield always in pursuit, I'm her maelstrom sucking all the evil, I'm her pulchritude and she shouldn't worry about that because I'm fully hers. Profligacy and consternation, dark could over my head but what matters in inside. We're gonna make it shine. I'm intromitting you the future, It always starts today. We can build a new tomorrow.